Meeting My Ex Lover [Solo]

[Zyrune]

Lets Play Elder Tales.

Hp: 100 Mp:100

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Tagged: Wc: 2148 NOTES:

"What do you want," Zyrune didn't turn around instead he continued looking out towards the horizon knowing exactly who it was behind him, it couldn't be anyone else. The pink haired druid stood staring out towards the fields of colour that stretched as far as the eye could see. He had gotten a letter, it was very brief and mentioned a time, date and a location. He didn't even know why he was even standing here and as his heart beat against his chest like a caged animal, he wondered why he thought this might have been a good idea. When he first read the paper he had screamed in anger and tore it to shreds but as the day past and the more he thought about it, his mind changed. "Tadashi." His hands tightened as he said the name. It had been some time since they had last spoke in fact time that both had used to think. The two hadn't exactly left on the best terms in fact they had been quite happy together enjoying the possibilities of a new romance when all came crashing down around them. It had happened during the coconia lunar festival when they had run into a young foxtail adventurer named Jacoben. The druid and him had a brief encounter some time previous where they hadn't exactly got along and yet they hadn't exactly not got along either. However Tadashi seemed captivated by this young man, he seemed to lose all interest in the druid almost instantly much to Zyrune's dismay. And yet the pink haired druid hadn't gone out without a fight. Before running off stage in a fit of tears after an amazing performance, the druid had more or less acted like a spoiled brat doing everything he could to get the lander to look at him and yet everything he did only seemed to drive the man further into the foxtail's hands. "It's been a while," That voice just seemed to pull at the druid's skin and already he could feel his heart tug at his chest. He couldn't help but feel old feelings he thought he had lost, that he had struggled to push down since his rejection during the valentines day festival. "Zyrune." Stiffening at the name and the overwhelming nothingness he now felt in his stomach, he turned towards the man with a frustrated gaze. It was clear that the druid couldn't help but feel aggression towards Tadashi and who could blame him. Sure he had acted like a spoiled brat that day, but only because the lander had literally cast him away without a word of an explanation. It hurt the druid immensely and the entire thing was exceptionally frustrating for him. He had lost not only his first romance this fictional world became a reality but also a friend that he had grown to trust and value over the course of a day and a man. And what bugged the druid just as much was that Jacoben was entirely innocent, he hadn't encouraged the lander nor did he ask for it. Instead he had been his cute handsome self the entire time and that bugged Zyrune even more as he had acted like an ass and literally done things he would never had dreamed of under a normal circumstance. Luckily no one bar Jacoben, Tadashi and the monk Shuwen knew about his temper tantrum or that he had been cast off like a fruit past it's date. Still his name was his and the lander had no write to say it, not after what he did. It was bad enough that the lander had decided to stay in Londinium especically after he had made such a big deal about wanting to leave. Taking a deep breath, the druid let his facade envelope him, the one he had decided to face this world with since that night, the one that protected him from pain or so he hoped. However as he stood looking at the taller man his stomach lurched. The emptiness that he felt was swallowing him up and he desperately wanted to run, to leave the lander standing here and to just run, but he couldn't. At least not yet. No he needed to know why, he need to know why the lander had cast him aside so easily. Narrowing his eyes, Zyrune stared at the lander. "So how are you and Jacoben?" The druid spoke trying his best to say it with as little venom as possible. The lander shrugged softly and smiled. "Better than I could ever hope for." The druid winced, he couldn't help it but the words stung. Did he honestly just say that, did he honestly think that would help things? "Oh." Zyrune replied with a shrug hoping the lander hadn't noticed. He needed to sound unaffected and emotionless, he had to or the lander would have won. "We are dating now, since that night." Once more his heart sank and pain soared through his body. Swallowing hard, the druid shrugged once more trying his best to seem unaffected when in fact all he wanted to do was run and hide. Despite the pain that slapped the half-alv, he struggled on. That might explain why the lander had decided to stay. But they had gotten together that night, the same night the lander had destroyed the druid's heart, the night he had made Zyrune act like a complete fool. That wasn't fair, no one deserved that, even if Zyrune had acted like an idiot, he didn't deserve that. Swallowing hard tears, he breathed a shaky slow breath before trying his best to smile. "I am happy for you." His heart sank as he watched the lander's eyes widen as his words shocked him somewhat, however it was soon replaced by that casual smile the lander so easily wore. "Thank you, that means alot." The pink haired druid couldn't help but feel worthless and betrayed. Biting his lip he wanted to ask the man so many questions that swirled through his head and yet he restrained. He could feel the pools of tears beginning to fill his eyes but he tried his best to ignore them, to ignore the gut wrenching pain, trying his best to maintain that calm facade. "He is very cute, he does this thing with his ears that just makes me smile every time." The lander spoke after a few seconds of silence, his tone and smile appeared as if he was oblivious to how much each word cut through the druid. It was like he was intentionally adding salt to the wound he had cut. "How nice." Zyrune replied, it was sharp and cold. "Don't be a jerk." Tadashi just stood there his hands in his pockets as he spoke. "To think I was worried about you?" The druid's eyes shot upwards and caught the man's gaze. "I'm the jerk?" He spat backwards. "If you are happy why did you even send that letter?" The druid muttered, despite everything going on in his head the druid couldn't stop his feelings for the man, the fought for a place in his mind just as much as the anger and hurt did. The lander simply stood there with his eyes trained on the shorter adventurer. Narrowing his green eyes for a moment he shrugged and looked off into the distance. "Please don't do that." The druid was surprised at the sentence and the confusion could be seen on his face. "Do what?" Zyrune asked utterly confused. "Looking like a kicked puppy." The lander spoke with a frown. "H-how am I supposed to look?" The druid shot back scowling feeling even more hurt. What did the lander expect he would react like and what right had he to expect Zyrune to be okay with his ex lover standing before him telling how great his current one was. The lander smirked as he turned his eyes back on the druid. It hurt him to see the druid's facade wash away only to be replaced by hurt. "Do you hate me that much?" The lander's voice changed, it was clear how much the thought hurt him. "We are friends aren't we?" "What do you expect me to do?" The druid spat back. "Do you expect me to open up to you, to share my feelings with the guy you tossed me aside and broke my heart. To listen and care as he talks about how much his new relationship is better than the one he had with me was?" The druid was furious now however the lander had a look on his face, was it guilt? "It's complicated." Hurt filled the druid's eyes but he couldn't stop himself. "Then tell me why you tossed me aside so easily, why you didn't even give me a second glace as you tossed me aside to chase after him." Gulping the druid turned from the lander as tears welled up threatening to fall. "OI!!" The lander called but the druid ignore him refusing to turn around. The lander paused as he watched the druid struggle to maintain his facade. His eye brows furrowed a little as he stared towards the half-alv. Zyrune didn't understand any of this. Why did the lander think that this was okay, why did he think it was okay to call on the person whose heart he broke and tossed aside like it was nothing and then act as if nothing had happened and they were still best buddies. Why did the lander bother to contact him at all, he hadn't done anything, he hadn't even breath a word of it to anyone. No the druid had kept his head down. He had buried himself into his craft, early mornings and late nights spent sewing tear drenched fabric together trying to distract him, trying to bury his feelings. "OI ZYURNE!" Why couldn't he just leave. Closing his eyes, he just wanted to be left alone. He could have avoided this, he could have no come, he could have torn that letter apart and just ignored Tadashi's invitation, he might have been better off that way. A hand on his shoulder broke the druid's thoughts and he gasped. Shrugging in an effort to free himself of the hand, he grunted as it tightened, he struggled as a second tried to turn him around. The hands gripped him tightly and in a moment the druid had been turned to face the lander, his large green eyes just gazed at him. Gulping the druid heaved, sobs racked his body as the lander's strong arms pulled him against his broad chest. The man's familiar smell brought the druid some comfort as old feelings he desperately tried to bury came rushing up. The man's body was warm and strong and it held him tight. His mind swarmed with questions and his heart raced against his chest. Pressed again him, the druid found his head lifted only to gaze into those all too familiar green eyes once more. As tears rolled over his cheeks, the man lowered his head until his breath could be felt on his lips. "Damn you." The lander whispered before his lips dived hungrily seeking the druids. The half alv's eyes widened in shock for a moment before he began to struggle for a moment but the lander held him tight as his tongue invaded the druid's mouth. The broke for a moment and the druid gasped for air as he looked at the man with a look of pure confusion on his face. The lander panted as he took in the sight below. Inhaling the druid's scent once more, he sighed. Tadashi knew it was wrong, but damn it he needed this, he needed him. Inhaling once more, the lander attacked the druid's mouth once more. All the feelings that he had felt for the pink haired man came rushing out and yet it confused him. He didn't understand this at all and yet he knew he needed the druid. As the broke once more, the pink haired druid buried his head in the man's chest just like Jacoben had that first night. Seeing Zyrune act like a spoiled brat had only turned the lander off so quickly and yet seeing how vulnerable and hurt he was did the opposite. As he clutched the healer's body close to his own, he thought of the foxtail. He love him, he wanted Jacoben more than anything he had wanted before and yet here he was holding Zyrune against him as if his life depended on it. When he first say the foxtail he understood love at first sight and yet the druid invoked something in him that he just didn't know how to explain. He didn't want to give either of them up, he couldn't. He just needed to think.

PYXIS ★

[Zyrune]

Lets Play Elder Tales.

Hp: 100 Mp:100

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Tagged: Wc: 1843 NOTES:

Zyrune stared upwards into the soft teal eyes that gazed back at him. His eyes and head hurt from a multitude of things, mainly through the tears stinging the corners of his eyes. It had been an eventful afternoon to say the least. All things considered it had been a good day, the marshmallow haired druid had spent the morning crafting some delightful pieces together, but he had gone to meet his ex lover who desperately still held tight in his heart. The two had eventually kissed which had been a confusing pile of raw emotions that caused the druid to soar within himself. They had spent the day together after that. It should have been perfect, save for one small thing. During possibly the best kiss they had ever shared, Tadashi had parted their lips and moaned his name, Jacoben. It hurt so much remembering that the tall muscular lander now had the fox tail to call his boyfriend, it hurt more to remember that on the same day they had gotten together, Tadashi had ended their relationship. Worse part about it was the druid didn't really know what to do, so here they were staring into one another's eyes moments after the sorcerer's name had been uttered and it hadn't been until the lander pulled him close, that the druid realized he didn't even notice which name he had spoken. The cotton candy healer knew of the lander's feelings for Jacoben and he had gotten past that, even was confident in referring to the fox tail as his friend, possibly his only one. Part of his reasoning for meeting Tadashi, was the hope that by talking they could restore their friendship and the druid could finally start being happy for the fox tail and his new tall beautiful boyfriend while still maintaining his friendship with the older male. It had been a wonderful day before the harsh reality had hit them. The two of them just spent the entire day together with Zyrune making sure to do everything in his power to make sure that the taller lander had a great time without putting to much pressure on each other, it had been like they had never parted ways, that this is what it would have been like if they had stayed together, perfection, bar the lander had called him Jacoben at several points in the day. The healer had wanted to leave, had wanted to accept it and go home, but he wanted Tadashi, he wanted him and he didn't even care if he was just being used, he needed the taller man's presence, at least for a day. Over the course of their time together he found himself truly longing for Tadashi to reciprocate his feelings, reciprocate the without the fox tail in his mind. It was kind of cruelly ironic really, pinning for someone who both loved you and someone else. The last of the warm spring wind kept the air warm enough for the strawberry pink druid to stand staring out towards the horizon. Fresh tears began to roll down his cheeks. He couldn't understand it, they had been through so much together, so many memories, so much time spent together, so many memories and yet why? Why was he still second in the man's heart? As he stood waiting for the lander to retrieve some food from a nearby stand, he could feel the familiar prickles of jealously beginning to bubbly within him. Shaking his head in some vain effort to rid himself of them, he knew he would make things worse by bringing it up, there was no way to say "And what about you boyfriend?" without ruining the evening and unleashing a conversation wrought with emotion so heavy the druid doubted he had the strength to face. Shivering from the cold, Zyrune wrapped his arms around himself instinctively, turning back, a sense of dread sank in his chest as he spotted the lander moving towards him. "Zyrune," The darker haired man speaks his name with such desire and affection, so much so the druid feared that Tadashi had ruined his name, surely it wouldn't sound as good coming from anyone else's lips. "Thank you." The cotton candy haired man spoke putting on his sweetest voice as he took one of the sticks of food from the taller man. "Are you okay Zyrune?" The larger male's had taken a serious tone, no longer did it drip of the affection that had been music to the druid's ears. "H-huh?" What do you mean?" He asked nervously, tilting his head innocently. "Haven't you had fun?" “Well… I have but you seemed… a little distracted at times.” The older man's gaze now settled on him with a stern expression as if prying information from a child who had been caught doing something wrong. Letting out a soft breath of air, the druid lowered his head. It was time for the day to end anyway, there was no point in denying the truth that had lingered above them the entire day. No it was time to face the truth and if that meant Tadashi returning to the fox tail, then that was what he had to face. "Did I do something wrong?" "No I just," The druid paused as he turned away from the lander as tears welled up in his eyes. "N-no I just .... I just can't do this any longer, that look..." Struggling to control his emotions, the druid tried to still his heart as it pounded roughly against his chest. "Look?" He heard the teal eyed chef question. "You called me his name..." With this the druid started sobbing, each torrent of tears seemed to only give way to more. "You've been doing it all day.." The lander took several steps back as the memories flooded in mind, the sickening reality of what his life was compared to the fantasy he had enveloped himself in. “I… I didn’t… oh god… Zyrune I’m so sorry. Its not what I meant honestly… I was just… just so-” Turning back to face him, tear stained face, the druid brought his hand up to wipe the tears away. "I know.." He spoke quitely, forcing the tears to go away. "You love Jacoben, I'm just just a nice substitute that swept you up in old memories and emotions, it's my fault for falling in love with you." The lander looked concerned and shocked. "Yes I love Jacoben, but that.." His mouth opened as the realization hit him, Zyrune watched as the words failed to come. "Zyrune, I' sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you." He took a step closer, but stopped in shock as Zyrune moved away. "It's okay... I like Jacoben too, he is sweet and pure and everything I wish I could be, I wish you both the best happiness." "OI!" The lander now had stepped before him, closing the distance between them in moments. Zyrune went to turn, hoping to run unable to take the pain any longer, but the lander grabbed his arm forcibly. "Don't run away, don't hide away like you always do." The druid swallowed, his heart in his throat now, he blinked back tears as his arm started to ache. "You love him, what more is there Tadashi!" Raising his voice, the druid glared at him still struggling to free himself. "You are such an asshole!" The lander spoke with a smirk that the druid didn't quite understand, was he enjoying his pain, that was a new turn for the lander and if that was the case he was willing to let the lander fall through grasp. "I am?" The pink haired support spat back. "You have a BOYFRIEND!" Trying his earnest, Zyrune managed to free his arm only for the larger male to wrap his long strong arms around his body, pulling the druid into him. Swallowing, Zyrune clench his jaw as felt the taller man hold him tightly above his hips, feeling the man's face nuzzle into the back of his neck. "I love you too Zyrune." “Shut… shut up,” The druid panted in response. His face reddening at the sound of his own unconvincing voice and he can’t stand it. How can the lander love him and love Jacoben, no it was ridiculous, he needed to choose and Zyrune knew who if forced the man would choose. "I do." The laugh that druid left out caused the lander to stiffen for a moment. "For now and then tomorrow I'll find myself alone with him on your arms." "That jealously I hear?" The taller male grunts from behind him. Shaking his head, the druid sighs. "Jacoben is sweet and honest, he doesn't need this." The druid's voice was shaky now. "I fall apart and come back, but it isn't so easy, especially not for someone like him when he finds out what we did." He heard the lander swallow behind him. "You like him don't you?" "I know him," The druid spat back still frustrated at how easily the lander was holding him in place. "Admit it, you want him too." The druid scoffed. "I care about him, I know what it feels like to think you can trust someone and have them toss you aside for someone else, especially that person who you feared would come between you." The druid's heart was pounding against his chest, his body shook with emotion while the lander held onto his lean body with a tight embrace. "Jacoben will never have to worry about that." The druid's stomach twisted uncomfortably. "Then let me go, I'll leave and you'll never have to see me again and the two of you can enjoy each other." "No." The lander grunted from behind him. "I love him, yeah it is early, but I do, he is like this shy little ball of affection that wraps around me. I can't explain what he does, but my heart and soul love him, I'm drawn to him." With each word, the druid felt his stomach twist further. "But I love you too." Once more the druid scoffed once more. "Don't," The lander's voice spoke sternly from behind him. "You are this ray of sunshine that I need, I want that smile of yours to because of me, I want to watch those vibrant purple eyes wake up in the morning." "Shit..." The lander grunted as if he had just realized the obvious. "You can't have us both." Zyrune spoke this time, his voice grimly serious, by now the tears had stopped rolling. "Who says I can't?" Tadashi spat back pressing himself against the druid. "I do." The normally cheerful voice replied grimly. "Bullshit, you want him as much as I do. I know you and I know what your thinking." The lander paused to spin the druid around to face him, staring up into those teal eyes, the taller man's breathing is harsh, needy, desperate. "Just admit it, you like him too...!" The taller man spoke, his voice low and silvery.

PYXIS ★